Stupidity.

Hello. Hahahaha. There's this thing that happened last Wed. It was already last week, and I don't know why I'm still posting it here. Darnn..

There was this friend of mine (I don't know if she's still my friend.), she looks so depressed of what had happened. That day, we lost in our Debate. Maybe that's the cause of her depression. Wait, I'm not sure if she's really depressed or what. Because with her acts, she's acting like she can't accept something but she's showing to us that it's okay, better luck next time. She's not showing her being 'affected' of what had happened. She's just not talking. For me, she's strong. But sometimes, being strong is not good. We should sometimes share it with our friends. Right? What will be the use of the people around you if you're like that? Okay, back to the scenario. I saw her like that... Not talking, not crying, she's just staring somewhere. I know she's not like that because I know her. I knew her. She's the type of girl who is really cool, who keeps on singing and dancing and ALWAYS make fun of me. But, that was 3 months ago. THREE MONTHS. I don't know if she's still like that. Darn. You know the feeling that you want to talk to someone but you can't because you're afraid of what will be her reaction, and you're afraid to be rejected? You're just controlling your feet to walk in her way. Sheesh! That was my question to myself during that time. I don't know what to do or to say. I've decided just to cry on the shoulder of my friend. That's all that I can do. Cry and cry.

I don't if I've already MOVED ON of what had happened last Retreat. I know, in myself, it's already NONSENSE. No feelings at all ALREADY. I'm just depressed because I WASTED something that is really, really precious. I mean, something that is worth keeping for. and that is our friendship :( I realized that.... That keep on rushing things. I mean, I'm doing and saying what I want without thinking of what will happen next. I know that there will something to happen after the revelation. She will not talk to me. Period.

As time passes, I'm already getting used to it. She passed on my way, I passed on her way. PERIOD. We don't talk to each other ANYMORE. We're just chating in Ym, sometimes in Facebook. But in Person? NU-UH!

Let's just wish for something... Something GOOD that will make us back to the PAST. Everything will be back to NORMAL.


PS. I'm not crying. I'm just sad and depressed.