Stupidity.

Hello. Hahahaha. There's this thing that happened last Wed. It was already last week, and I don't know why I'm still posting it here. Darnn..

There was this friend of mine (I don't know if she's still my friend.), she looks so depressed of what had happened. That day, we lost in our Debate. Maybe that's the cause of her depression. Wait, I'm not sure if she's really depressed or what. Because with her acts, she's acting like she can't accept something but she's showing to us that it's okay, better luck next time. She's not showing her being 'affected' of what had happened. She's just not talking. For me, she's strong. But sometimes, being strong is not good. We should sometimes share it with our friends. Right? What will be the use of the people around you if you're like that? Okay, back to the scenario. I saw her like that... Not talking, not crying, she's just staring somewhere. I know she's not like that because I know her. I knew her. She's the type of girl who is really cool, who keeps on singing and dancing and ALWAYS make fun of me. But, that was 3 months ago. THREE MONTHS. I don't know if she's still like that. Darn. You know the feeling that you want to talk to someone but you can't because you're afraid of what will be her reaction, and you're afraid to be rejected? You're just controlling your feet to walk in her way. Sheesh! That was my question to myself during that time. I don't know what to do or to say. I've decided just to cry on the shoulder of my friend. That's all that I can do. Cry and cry.

I don't if I've already MOVED ON of what had happened last Retreat. I know, in myself, it's already NONSENSE. No feelings at all ALREADY. I'm just depressed because I WASTED something that is really, really precious. I mean, something that is worth keeping for. and that is our friendship :( I realized that.... That keep on rushing things. I mean, I'm doing and saying what I want without thinking of what will happen next. I know that there will something to happen after the revelation. She will not talk to me. Period.

As time passes, I'm already getting used to it. She passed on my way, I passed on her way. PERIOD. We don't talk to each other ANYMORE. We're just chating in Ym, sometimes in Facebook. But in Person? NU-UH!

Let's just wish for something... Something GOOD that will make us back to the PAST. Everything will be back to NORMAL.


PS. I'm not crying. I'm just sad and depressed.

Underrr.

Nov. 16-20. English week and of course, Debate week for the Senioooors. In the first round, Piety VS. Under.. symepre, nanalo ang under. hahaha. pareho silang magaling :) on that day, highest pointer ang Under :P edi yon. the second day, kalaban namin ang Counsel. guess what? they won with a wrong adjudication. shet. SAAN KA NKAKITA NG DEBATE KUNG SAAN NAG-AGREE ANG PROPOSING TEAM SA ARGUMENT NG OPPOSING TEAM? mygaad. AT SAN KA NKAKITA NG DEBATE KUNG SAAN 2 MINS LANG ANG SPEECH?! Watda?! sheeet. bilib dn ak sa section na yun uh.. NANALO SA DI MAKATWIRANG PARAAN. mygad.

anyways, tapos na rin yon. wala na ko pakelam. hahahahaha. makita ko lang na ayos lang mga debaters nmen, ayos na rin sken :) sa mata ng mga tao, kem ang panalo. sa mga mata LANG nila sila panalo :P hahahahah. we won 3rd place. then wisdom as the 2nd. TAPOS!

yesterday was a big WOW for Under. takbo dito, takbo doon. tanong dito, tanong doon. akyat doon, akyat dito. type doon, research dito. woooooooow. hahahaha. lahat na ata ng teacher ng isko napagtanungngan na nmen just to help our debaters :) ang sarap ng feeling ng gnon :) yung tipong kahit nkakapagod pinaggagawa mo, nakikita mo mga kaklase mong determinadong manalo. yung gnun? hahahaha. wala lang. na'inspire ak. hahahaha. ngayon ko lang masasabi na MAY UNITY TALAGA ANG UNDER AT DI YON MATATANGGAL :P

wala na ko masabi dahil wala ak sa sarili ko. swear. anyhoo, GOODMORNING :)

debate :)

hahahaha. a while ago, mga morning. we had a debate with the 4 piety. it was nice to compete with them because they're palaban :) hahaha. akala nga ng under, talo na mga debaters nmen kse they questioned the parameter of the piety. tas yon :) pero infairness, nabawi nila. at bandang huli, our team won the debate! hahaha. nakakainis nga nung alisan na e.. our president, jazzil torno. parang nagmayabang in a joke way but not in a nice way. hahahaha. mygaad. tama bang sabihin na: "TMROW, YOU'LL GET LOST AGAIN." watda? sheesh. di siya under. shame on her! top 1 pa nmen na maituturing.

oyun, wala na ko masabi. kahit gsto ko pang magtype at magtype dito, i can't. ang daming ginagawa. ang daming gagawin. errr.

Senior

okay. it's a Sunday today. so many things to do, so many things to understand. there's an assignment there, there's a project there, there's a reporting there and blah blah! i hate senior life. but sometimes, i realize that i love being a senior already :P (ano raw? ha ha ha.)

being a senior is NOT EASY. not just because of the subjects.. merely because of time. it's hard to manage it especially when you're busy. BUSY! tss. at the same time, you have many problems. gaaaah! since i became a senior student, i don't have any time anymore to my friends. especially with my BEST BUDS! mygooood. i can't do anything.. i want to be with them all the time. but then and again, i can't. i'm on the second floor of the building. while they are on the ground floor. sheeesh. i miss them, really. it's been months that we're not together. i mean, unlike last time. recess, lunch, dsmissal.. we're always together. ALWAYS.

as time passes, i'm already getting used to it. maybe also them. because as i can see, they're not that affected anymore. i'm not sad about that. i'm happy for them. because i can see them happy without my presence. i know that i'm not only their friend.


<3 laziness strikes me!

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It's exactly 9:52 in the evening of Nov. 14.. Right now, i feel something WEIRD. something that i'm not supposed to feel. maybe, my being sensitive is starting again. gaaah! i always feel that i'm alone. my friends are going somewhere.. somewhere that i can't find them. oh, i thing they're already gone. sheesh.

14, the number for my group. 14 stands for our monthsarie numbe. but, what happened? it's 14 today and they don't even bother to greet! mygoood. what the hell? shit. i kepp on telling to myself that.. they're busy doing speeches for their debates, they don't have load. but, what now? they keep on sending group messages.. oh c'mon, what's going on?

i don't know if there's wrong with me.


i'm now welcoming myself to blogspot. i hope i can always release my feelings, either hard or good. i hope that, i can express here my feelings in a way that only a FEW knows :)